Those words sound so sensible and noble, don’t they?
Yet, why do I still find myself so consumed with thoughts about myself and my own ambitions and interests. It seems like most times, when I catch myself having a conversation with myself (yes, I talk to myself, just like you do), that I don’t catch myself interceding for a friend, or dreaming about how I might meet someone else’s need. Invariably, I catch myself being wrapped up in me and mine– my fears, my frustrations with others, my selfish desires or longings, sometimes my guilt, my hopes for the approval of others, and too often my concerns for my success.
Too often, the words of an old Keith Green song seem to be my experience as well. “As each day passes by, I feel my love run dry. I get so weary worn, being tossed round in the storm. I’m blind to other’s needs and I’m tired of planting seeds. I seem to have a wealth… of so many thoughts about myself.
I want to, I need to, be more like Jesus. I want to be more like Him. Remember there’s no greater love than to lay down your life for a friend.
The end of all my prayers is to care like my Lord cares. My one and only goal… His image in my soul. My weakness is revealed, but by His stripes I’m healed. He’s faithful and He’s true to complete the work He begins in you!”
I have to say that of late, God has begun to use a tremendous tool in my life, in this fight to move beyond myself to truly live and love and serve Christ and others. It’s been a network of men who have locked arms together to renew our minds with the truths of God’s Word. Every day we’ve committed to read, chew on, study, and pray through a particular passage of Scripture, and do that daily for a week, asking God to make us more like Jesus. This week, for example, we’re working thru Philippians 2:1-11, where it admonishes us to, “Do nothing from rivalry of empty conceit, but in humility to count others more important than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves which is found in Christ Jesus” (2:3-5).
Knowing that we cannot do it on our own, our aim is to– by email, texts, phone calls and intercession for one another– transparently confess our hang-ups and encourage one another to do more than read the Bible, but be humbly changed by it. And God is using it to do an amazing work in each of our lives. In fact, these men are being used in my life more than they know. For by the grace and truth of God I am being changed for good, and for the good of all those my life will touch.
Sure, sometimes I still feel like I’m climbing a sand-dune, going three steps forward and sliding two steps back, but I have such a sense that He who has begun this good work in me, will see it through. And as He renews my mind, He’s renewing my desire and strength to move beyond myself, become more like Him, and learn to truly live.
Thank you God. Thank you guys.